Faith

We had a meeting on Thursday and another scan. The meeting was with the consultant team who will look after us before and after the birth. It was an opportunity to ask questions and find out a little more about what we may be able to expect, the potential problem areas.
We had our “regular” scan afterwards to look at babies growth and any changes in the fluid in her brain. The measurements did show an increase in the fluid which is what we have been told to expect and the doctor was not overly concerned, but I found this a real blow. I think it is the uncertainty of what effects this could have on her brain development that really scares me, and the fact that I can do nothing about it. I am sure anyone who has seen their child ill or in pain feels the same helplessness.

To say that this is not testing my faith would be a complete lie, but I am reminded that “faith is being sure of what we hope for & certain of what we do not see”.

We want to be able to control this situation and we cannot, but we can trust in God, who we know has been faithful to us in the past and has promised never to leave us or forsake us.
One of the small blessings of having so many scans is that we get to see our girl before she has arrived. On Thursday we saw her wiggling her toes which was a really exciting sign, she was also captured on camera with two fingers in the air, so we may have to have some words when she gets here!